I don't think my problem is a case of FOMO. I'm fine with missing out on things and sometimes even do it intentionally. I generally make it a policy to let the newest fandom thing pass me by... I have better things to do and additionally I'd rather spend my time doing things I like rather than chasing trends. Still, I'm not infallible, which explains why I'm writing this entry in an attempt to exorcize some demons.

The feeling springs up when I'm doing something simultaneously with a friend — playing a game, reading a book, watching a series... you'd imagine that would make keeping pace easier but that's seldom been the case for me. To put it simply, im slow as hell. Like Really Slow. Not in the sense that I'm slow with whatever media is occupying me, I just like to linger on my pet projects and spend a lot of time on them, analyzing them from multiple angles, hearing out what people have to say on it... like that. It's a pretty okay and languid approach to things that's mostly born out of necessity (I'm a busy guy) and it usually doesn't give me any problems — right until a friend starts a new thing. I must emphasize the fault is on nobody at all and least of all on my friends, I just tend to get a nagging feeling of "move on already" when they're starting new thing and I can't keep up. The feeling gets amplified when I have genuine reasons to not start anything new right now. It's kind of like watching the ice cream truck pass you buy. You know you want it in the moment and theoretically you could drop everything and run after it and scratch the itch, but you know better not to. But then you're reminded of your own fickle nature and think to yourself if it's not better to run after all, because you can't be sure if you'll have the same fervor for it the following month. Add some made up platonic expectations on top and you end up feeling Really Bad for no reason at all and wanting to do something else altogether.

I don't have some grand therapy plan here that hopes to remove the feeling from me. It's an extremely gross sensation and it feels bad when talking with your friend feels like nails on a board. In the meantime I'll just chip away at my workload and hope for some peace of mind.

When I first watched Top Gun, all I could think to myself was "Wow, that Iceman sure is a cool dude". My opinion didn't change much upon multiple rewatches — he just has that draw to him. And then like every fledgling Kilmer fan, I went and watched Michael Mann's Heat. Warm, summery gangster cinema at its finest. If I may be honest, it feels strange being able to talk about Kilmer like an old friend despite not having watched much of his filmography (still haven't seen Tombstone... sorrry). Strange thing. In any case, may he Rest in Peace.

Hi. Long time no see. I didn't really intend on vanishing like this but life has gotten much busier for me than anticipated and I had to put this little project on hold. Long story short, school, school and then some more school. Finals are coming up and I'm pretty stressed. The usual. But I still did some stuff in the meantime! I already had several longer blog entries planned some months ago and I really want to see them through sooner or later, so stay posted for that (if it ever comes to pass). In any case I still have a lot to do and not much time to spare... so I bid farewell... until the next time.

"This Man Was Shot 0.9502 Seconds Ago" by David Lynch (1946-2025)

Visited a gallery today. Might write something proper on it?

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